Response to Dopamine Nation, by Anna Lembke, MD

30 OF 30 DAYS (4 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) Here I am at the completion of this excursion. Reflecting to evolve. Reminiscing to feel. Recalling details to tell my story. 30 Days Dopamine Fast to reset my hedonic set point. My pain and pleasure baseline. If sounds elementary to say, “I feelContinue reading “Response to Dopamine Nation, by Anna Lembke, MD”

Motivation to Pursue

23 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) I didn’t want to kill myself. That was enough hope for me to know that I was going to be okay. Yet, each moment of everyday wasn’t easy to say the least. I couldn’t get up and off the bed. I was sleepingContinue reading “Motivation to Pursue”

Discovering Treasure

8 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) I dread most mornings than some, getting up, getting ready, being at my best self, fully functioning adult, presenting myself as a professional. I will not accredit so much to covid, but since covid, along with the experiences during its time, I noticed IContinue reading “Discovering Treasure”

Misery Loves Company

(3 mins audio listen on Medium @FLO Mystic) It was naive of me to think that I would just get on the plane from Ninoy Aquino International Airport to O’hare and everything will unfold for me like how I had imagined. Narrate it in such a way like a fairy tale. The story of myContinue reading “Misery Loves Company”

Do You Know MIA

4 mins audio listen on Medium @FLO Mystic I have suffered from Depression for more than a decade. Possibly longer without awareness. Exactly my point. My first memory of emotional and mental imbalance within myself was during my teen years. I knew I didn’t feel good, but not exactly knowing why. I had just turnedContinue reading “Do You Know MIA”

Resonance

deep, full, reverberatinga quality of richness and varietyevoking a response from meadjusting, mirroring, invitingthis indescribable feeling is intensean overwhelming sensation coursing through my bodyI am moved into being with, leaning in, surrenderingnothing else matters in this momentmy body has taken over my head and heart I feel felt, I am drawn to you… I’m notContinue reading “Resonance”

Witness Embrace

Standing, sitting, laying downYes, my feet are on the groundYet, I feel I have not landed To a place where I can fully restA dwelling my soul can call homeIn the arms of the one I truly belong I’m still longingYearning for a homecomingNot in theory or a mystery Resonance that is tangible  Not just in youContinue reading “Witness Embrace”

Life is meaningless

Did life happen to me, for me, or through me? Take your pick. What do you desire to experience? Or shall I say, how do you desire to experience Self today? I have experienced Self with intense pleasure, I thought my brain’s gonna explode, and that would be the end of my existence. HA, whatContinue reading “Life is meaningless”

Is Depression Like a Flu?

“Influenza is a viral infection that attacks your respiratory system — your nose, throat and lungs. Influenza is commonly called the flu. For most people, the flu resolves on its own. But sometimes, influenza and its complications can be deadly.” – mayoclinic.org Ouch! Can you relate? Have you gotten a flu? Have you witness someoneContinue reading “Is Depression Like a Flu?”