THAT BEHOLDER IS YOU.
aHh… it took me 3 decades, battling insecurities and low self-esteem. To finally feeling comfortably home in mySelf. To this day, I still get insecure, but I feel confidence in my insecurities. I cannot articulate fully the energy that I feel….
It feels safe, it feels gentle, it feels kind, it feels loving, it feels home. Home within mySelf.
I don’t want to convince myself that, I am beautiful. I want to feel it and realize it.
Nor do I want to over spiritualize my human experiences and say,…
I don’t need this and I don’t want that.
That is not authentic. Not for me at least.
But dang, beauty indeed is in the eye of the beholder.
I see me before everyone else.
It is powerful to have positive Self talk and it can support Mental Health. But it is even more powerful I feel, to have healthy Self talk.
Healthy to me means I’m not overly positive nor optimistic that I bypass my human experiences and ignore what I truly feel inside. When has suppression helped anyone?
To this day, some of us are still working through repressed emotions.
Healthy is that expression of both the insecurities and the confidence in myself that even if ____ (fill in the blank), I will be there for me no matter what. I will advocate for myself. I will be my number 1 fan. I will be my cheer leader. I see me. I hear me. I will hold me and embrace me.
YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL.
…and this word indeed is just a word without meaning, without power, and can easily be overlooked.
Until you the true BEHOLDER OF BEAUTY not agree, but realize for yourself that dang….
INDEED THE EYE OF THE BEHOLDER HOLDS TRUTH TO YOUR BEAUTY.
For that Beholder is YOU.
FLORENCE LEONARDO 