I want to shout to the world, "Dang you did it girl!" I feel tired at the moment as I'm writing this towards the end of the day. But this morning I paid off a debt 2 years earlier than it was projected to complete. It was an emotional moment and monumental chapter of my …
Beauty in the Eye of the Beholder
THAT BEHOLDER IS YOU. aHh… it took me 3 decades, battling insecurities and low self-esteem. To finally feeling comfortably home in mySelf. To this day, I still get insecure, but I feel confidence in my insecurities. I cannot articulate fully the energy that I feel…. It feels safe, it feels gentle, it feels kind, it feels loving, …
DEATH “Wisdom of the Tarot”
GREAT SECRETS OF THE MAJOR ARCANA (1 min audio listen on Medium) THE END IS HERE 💗. .. as is the new beginning. For both are two of the same. Not to bypass grief, but welcome life in its many facet. To cry your loss and celebrate your gain. Let go when you feel ready, never …
I’m hurting today, still yearning
GRIEF IS NOT LIMITED BY TIME (2 mins audio listen on Medium) It was dated 9.9.21 I thought I’ve served my time? I’ve lossed so much in the last forty years of my life. Only in the last couple of years when the world simultaneously experienced an unprecedented loss as a collective is when I finally …
Response to Dopamine Nation, by Anna Lembke, MD
30 OF 30 DAYS (4 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) Here I am at the completion of this excursion. Reflecting to evolve. Reminiscing to feel. Recalling details to tell my story. 30 Days Dopamine Fast to reset my hedonic set point. My pain and pleasure baseline. If sounds elementary to say, “I feel …
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ANGER: feeling, emotion, being
27 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) The voice is getting louder. The words articulated imply a building up of a potential outburst for intense emotion, which can be unpleasant to be around. “Don’t be angry.” I’ve heard this many times throughout my life and it makes me even more …
Motivation to Pursue
23 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) I didn’t want to kill myself. That was enough hope for me to know that I was going to be okay. Yet, each moment of everyday wasn’t easy to say the least. I couldn’t get up and off the bed. I was sleeping …
The Beginning of the Last
(3min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) Yikes, feels like a daunting task. I have envisioned this day and thought when it was still in the future, “that would be pleasant.” HA, I don’t usually use that adjective to describe an experience nor a feeling. I’m realizing that it would indeed be a “pleasant” experience …
Don’t Give Up On Yourself
(4 min read on Medium @FLO Mystic) Oh how easy it is tho. Not that there isn’t any merit to pause and rest. But what are you truly giving up on and letting go when you do? There is a fine line between perceiving you are giving up on that which you identify as an experience …
Misery Loves Company
(3 mins audio listen on Medium @FLO Mystic) It was naive of me to think that I would just get on the plane from Ninoy Aquino International Airport to O’hare and everything will unfold for me like how I had imagined. Narrate it in such a way like a fairy tale. The story of my …
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