I’m hurting today, still yearning

GRIEF IS NOT LIMITED BY TIME (2 mins audio listen on Medium) It was dated 9.9.21 I thought I’ve served my time? I’ve lossed so much in the last forty years of my life. Only in the last couple of years when the world simultaneously experienced an unprecedented loss as a collective is when I finallyContinue reading “I’m hurting today, still yearning”

Reengaging with the World “Happy New Year 2023 🎆”

AFTER 30 DAYS DOPAMINE FAST (2 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) My addicting brain chemical is rushing like a flood. It has been some 30+ days. I would even say 40 days since I have pulled away, took time off alone to myself (writing on Medium) and deliberate decrease of the usual dopamine high IContinue reading “Reengaging with the World “Happy New Year 2023 🎆””

Response to Dopamine Nation, by Anna Lembke, MD

30 OF 30 DAYS (4 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) Here I am at the completion of this excursion. Reflecting to evolve. Reminiscing to feel. Recalling details to tell my story. 30 Days Dopamine Fast to reset my hedonic set point. My pain and pleasure baseline. If sounds elementary to say, “I feelContinue reading “Response to Dopamine Nation, by Anna Lembke, MD”

ANGER: feeling, emotion, being

27 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) The voice is getting louder. The words articulated imply a building up of a potential outburst for intense emotion, which can be unpleasant to be around. “Don’t be angry.” I’ve heard this many times throughout my life and it makes me even moreContinue reading “ANGER: feeling, emotion, being”

A World of Many

24 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) This notion that, “Parallel Realities exist and co-exist…” I was brought up in tradition. History of family beliefs past on from generations to a generation. That the world is not all good. There is evil. Some things you fight for and some, “it isContinue reading “A World of Many”

Motivation to Pursue

23 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) I didn’t want to kill myself. That was enough hope for me to know that I was going to be okay. Yet, each moment of everyday wasn’t easy to say the least. I couldn’t get up and off the bed. I was sleepingContinue reading “Motivation to Pursue”

I See You

19 OF 30 DAYS (2 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) These 3 words are transformative and transcendence. I fell in love with Avatar 14 years ago when the first movie was released in 2009. I was young at 26 years of age. Rebellious. Ignorant. Naive. My Soul wasn’t awakened to the heights ofContinue reading “I See You”

Even when I am certain

18 OF 30 DAYS (2 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) I feel the most awakened Soul I have ever experienced myself to be. As a 40 years and aging Woman living today, I feel there isn’t anything that I cannot achieve, succeed in, overcome, evolve to, develop, mature and grow. And still, atContinue reading “Even when I am certain”

Informed Consent

16 OF 30 DAYS (3 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) “The information on this list I am consenting to as acceptable. I’m not asking you to comply if its inauthentic to you. However, If you want to date me and eventually be in a romantic relationship & life partnership with me, then I do needContinue reading “Informed Consent”

I’m going to be okay

15 OF 30 DAYS (1 min audio read on Medium @FLO Mystic) “I’m available to talk, adept, and willing.“ Time has past and distance is lengthening. Enough unfolded and transpired in the silence between. It was communicating even without intention. Anger and Bitterness is what I’ve felt. Still feeling. I say, “what I have experiencedContinue reading “I’m going to be okay”