40 and Beyond…

Lots to check off and mark on the book. I am thankful for doing the things I wanted to do for myself today. Some felt too much effort. Striving instead of motivated to do them. Subconsciously, like I have to perform to be able to say…

this is what I did for my 40th birthday.

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I imagined this day to be different than what I am witnessing of myself.

I do have people in my life, but I do feel lonely today.

I want a hug, I desired to be kissed, to be pursued, and embrace, to be seen, held, known. I want to make love with the one who has captured my heart.

Sitting at the restaurant waiting for my meal, I am aware, I feel unsatisfied.

On one hand thankful for many things in my life. 
On the other hand, I also feel I haven’t experienced much of what I desired.

now at 40 years…

Far from ungrateful, but present to how I am unfolding.

I ate half my meal, I was hungry. Yet still, after my meal… unsatisfied.

Got my Starbucks free bday treat, didn’t even finish my grande drink… 
still unsatisfied.

THIS IS 40.. this is where I am today..

within myself, in all my experiences, being with my emotion, and feelings.

Now laying in bed. I feel exhausted.

My legs, my feet, my arms, my hand, my neck, my heart… they hurt.

All in all, THIS IS 40.

I am Present to ALL that is here.

Published by FLO Mystic

I am intentional about the condition of the heart. “For out of the abundance of the heart the mouth speaks.” The wholeness of the heart allows ​clarity of vision and an increase in understanding. The tenderness of the heart gives the ability to hear accurately. The affection of the heart affects every part of your being, spirit, soul, and body. You truly live the abundance of life by the condition of your heart. How is your heart today? Have you check-in?

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